Went swimming with XXX lately and he told me he has lost some confidence in himself. I totally agree with him when I see him. But I am wondering to myself if I am in the same plight as him now. Definitely I am running low on confidence.

It is not easy to admit it, but I am going hard on myself to instill this fact right into the very core of my heart. Because I want to get out of this as quick as I can. It is an uphill task but I am not going to give up.

When I was admitted to the hospital, I asked myself a lot of questions. Why is this happening? Why me?

I thought maybe I wasn't a good enough person and God has decided to punish me.

I am not sure if I have written about this already, but anyway, in the first few days of my admittance to the hospital, I was quite upset about everything (come on who won't?). Why am I there, why is this happening blah blah. I actually blamed God for whatever it is happening to me.

Later, I began to see things as they were. Sometimes things are just meant to be. I longer blame anyone for what happened.

When I got better, I thanked God or who ever out there who is watching me. I am a lucky person after all, to survive this ordeal.

This might be the last time I am going to talk about such morbid stuffs. I tell myself this is so unlike me. But I guess the mood I have now suits writing about such stuffs. Even my blog skin is so emo as many have said. I am going to change one for the upcoming CNY. It will be a happier one I promise.

So while some of us might be a little low in spirits recently, actually I know quite some of my friends are, please take it with a pinch of salt as in life there will always be ups and downs.

What really differentiate a happy and successful person from one who is not, is not just always being able to bathe in the bliss of happiness, but the ability to climb out of slumps whenever you fall in.